thanks for the kind words ladies. that was a rough spot. i'm still down about it, but i realize there are other factors feeding into my body issues, more than seeing pictures of beautiful thin girls in the media, more than not having a boyfriend, and maybe too personal to elaborate in an open forum.

but don't worry, i'm not taking crazy diet pills that will mess up my heart. i just meant my pain meds for my back make me kind of nauseous, but not enough to completely prevent me from eating. i just can't overeat when i take them.

but thanks, its good to know you'll be there, even if i gain 100 pounds.